So it's the start of my Christmas duty. Will be on duty every 72 hours starting today. Rest on Monday. Duty again on December 24, 25 and 26. Rest again on 27 and go back on 28. Wild, huh?But what the heck, they gave me a New Years off so I'm heading to Bangkok for a week with the fambam, wohooo. I love thai food. You should honestly try them. So Netflix is like my best...

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Dear Netflix,Every peso I am paying you is worth it, thanks to your recent added series, "Crash landing into you" featuring no other than Hyun Bin (oh myyyyyyyyyyyyyy, *laglag pantttyy is an underrstatement, haha. Lady boner ampu, disclaimer: kids, get out of this site, haha. And remind me to take this website down once I start my private practice hahaha)Hyun Bin, I love you the moment I saw you at Memories of Alhambra. And touche...

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I'm reading Ryan Agoncillo's lengthy instagram captions for his wife. Daymmm. They are the goal.I'd do anything to find a life partner who I can spend long nights with discussing about dreams, ambitions, or anything under the sun that covers passions on anthropology, culture, history and my weird fascination with world war 1, world war 2 and Russian culture (recently, Romanov dynasty. Disappointed on the documentary series of Netflix, The Last Czar tho- seriously Rasputin...

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Lola's back home. Been spending time in her house while she's in the province (half way, safe house as I call it, long long long story, hahaha). Can't leave at 12am nor go to the gym at 4am, wtffffff. So what time can I go in and out of this house? Go inside when there is no sun and go out when there is sun. Huhuhuhu. Sunlight makisama ka. Hahaha 🌞☀️😂Forced to go back home....

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It's a saturday morning and I'm stuck in the neonatal intensive care unit (NICU) monitoring a 36 weeker due to apnea of prematurity probably secondary to sepsis due to retained fecal materials, to consider necrotizing enterocolitis (the worse man). Haven't had my morning coffee (which reminds me to undo these days since the coffee stain on my teeth are starting to bug me) and had to tie my hair in a bun (which all know...

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I just had a patient who is currently being taken care of by her aunt because the mother is too busy at work to take care of her. Well, that's according to the tita.This reminded me on some flashbacks and then I asked myself if I can bear a child into this world and let other people take care of him or her while I'm out there chasing my dreams. At some point, I was willing...

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Getting out of bed seems like a chore these days. Everyday is a quitting day.If I only knew that residency training was this hard, I would have stayed in boracay as a resort doctor and took the job in Shangrila Boracay when they were hiring me and stayed in the island inevitably (lest sinusundo ako ng may kasamang militar, lol)God, why why why whyYou know my heart longs for adventure. The adrenaline rush, the heart pumping...

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This is how we do it.You will always be my mentor, idol and crush. Your brillance and how you talkkkk mannnn I get honestly swept away. Maybe this is how we do both worlds. Wish me luck. Get ready for me CNN Philippines!This is why we need to graduate sooon!!  ...

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Lately I've been really thinking of life in general and how it has come to be, this.I have no qualms. I did end up as a doctor. But, in this retrospective outlook in the spirit of Christmas, I must say... I've remembered a place where I wanted to take up something else.I remember the 12 year old kid who used to write a lot, active in the school paper, wanting to be more socially involved and...

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Can't believe my hair is this long.Been spending so much on skin care and salons. Ughhhhhh. Need to stand on my own feet (can't I just ask allowance for the rest of my life, residency training stilllll feels likeee fucking schooooooooooolllllllll tho. Huhuhu) Goodbye perm. Looks like I would have to earn you.  😭 ...

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Dear Self,I honestly think we should do this adulting soon. We arent getting younger (lol) and although I blame people (ahem) for making me a fucking entitled bitch when I am fucking angry (lol), one way or the other we need to rely on ourselves.One thing I need to do is to transport my daily ass to work daily. Fucking grab fare is damn expensive which reminds me to invest in car loan. WE NEED...

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Hard to insert intravenous canula to crying kiddos with you on since it's duty season again. Huhuhuhu.When will I ever get to grow my nails again? Will miss you gorgeous tips 😭 ...

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"I truly believe that having someone to share myself with romantically is a beautiful thing and it can bring a lot of happiness to my life. But I simply trust my gut when it comes to getting to know someone new, and I am very selective about who I spend my time with. I want to be with someone who I have a positive connection with, rather than settling for a warm body next to...

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To you my dear self, let me remember daily why I'm doing this. Why nga ba? Hahaha.Everyday is a drag day. Someone remind me why I want to be a Pediatrician. Residency training is HUHUHUHU. More on this after this 72 hours duty.Meanwhile, taking advantage of movie marathon and series while no patients to bother you. Lord, huwag na po sila dumaan sa emergency room. Gulp ...

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It's finally October. What a hell month, that September was. It was such a test of character, values and strength. I don't know if it was a good call that we alerted mothers to be wary about fever. Thus, all kids who just had fever especially if its just hours prior seen by a physician is warranted to be valid. It was such a test of patience also. Oh September. You made my zit flare...

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It's a long story on how I ended up here. Maybe when I'm ready, I can narrate the hows and turns. All I know is that I miss my old hospital terribly. I took my first year of residency at Makati Medical Center. And, I miss them so badly. Sadly, I had to come home due to personal reasons (I hate you Father. @!#&^) But, I'll be back soon. Making the most of my training,...

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There's this saying in residency that the hours of duty are long but the days are short. Before you know it, fuck... you're duty again. EVERY THREE DAYS. This brings me to the part where all of a sudden you come to a realization that loneliness will always remain a big chunk of your residency life. Friends and family will just pass you by, while you on the other hand, stuck at the hospital. EVERY...

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Patient A, please dont have a cardiac arrest or septic shock tonight. I'm at the other room, lying down, on stand by in either ways. grrrr * h you! ...

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It's 10:30PM, I'm at the emergency room... waiting for the results of this kid's pee. Thinking of getting the hell out of here, yet 12 noon of the folllwing day, seems so long. FUCK THIS. What the f am I doing in my life. Reminds me of the good old days when I was dreaming of a life ahead of me. I always wanted to be an investigative journalist. The fucking thrill and chase of...

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It's 2019! Can't believe that I have stopped writing since. Well, just for an update.. I am currently on my 2nd year of residency training in Pediatrics. God knows how much I am dying. Need an outlet, hence decided to revive this blogsite. I honestly don't know who reads this, but if you are... I just want to let you know how much it's difficult becoming a doctor. Let my insights on residency inspire you....

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