Internship over!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Snapshot preview of my graduation picture.

Another graduation... another moment, accepting a "fake" diploma/certificate with matching shaking of hands :)

Such a proud moment.

Now.. on to the Physician Licensure Examination on September 2016!

Let's go #PLE2016

woot. woot.

*gulp

Know Thy Self

If there's one thing that life has taught me, it's the ability to know yourself :)

It's wonderful that there is a silver lining in life. If there's one thing I gained, it was the ability to know myself.

And so, thanks :)

Not Okay with Okay

In case you are wondering... I'm not okay. I'm not okay in settling. Yes, you heard me right.

Once was enough. But I'm not settling into something that I know I don't deserve.

I don't know when that day comes... and honestly, I'm not afraid if it doesn't come.

I'm not afraid.

I have no fear.

But if settling down to anyone is the norm these days, then I'm not okay.

...

I deserve more and if others can't give it to me.

I will give it all to myself.

Hashtag #empowered <3 hahahaha.

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A dog would do, but that's work. Maybe a gold fish. Haha <3

Empowered Women

Recently, I have been amazed by someone very close to me. I've always admired her for being so strong. This made me realize that there are many women out there whose circumstances are far worse than mine but despite it all, they choose to be strong.

It's not an easy decision. But they have to.

I'm so amazed with this woman's confidence, wit and grace to bounce back up.

I'm very fortunate that I have been in her presence for me to realize things.

I don't know how long but I know, in God's time... the person that I lost in myself will return.

<3

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See you soon, real self :)

Yahuhhhh

Pressured to be back in my size ASAP causes stress. This time, maybe just wait.

<3

Shredding

After enduring 10 years of medical education, I realized I have put some good amount of weight.

Stress. Binge eating and the like, has placed me in this current weight. HAHA.

Now, that I have all the time in the world, I realized that shredding down can be achieved.

I thought fast results would help but then I realized that I should be patient with myself.

Still not in the shape I want to be.


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Getting there.

Heart Stopped

I thought I had to reformat my laptop once more.

Accidentally did something. Hahaha.

Thank you Google! Thank you tech geeks for saving my life.

I just honestly like figuring out CS commands on my own. Hahaha ;0

In Pursuit of Angela

The Alter Ego.

Her name is Angela.

Angela Callanta

Courage, my Dear

Some people only look at life through eyes that seldom gleam
while others look beyond today as they're guided by a dream
And the dreamers can't be sidetracked by dissenters who may laugh
for only they alone can know how special is their path

But dreams aren't captured easily;
there's much work before you're through
but the time and efforts are all worthwhile
when the impossible comes true

And dreams have strength in numbers
for when a common goal is shared
the once impossible comes true because of all who cared

And once it's seen as reality a dream has just begun
for magically from dreams come dreams
And a walk becomes a run

But with growth of course comes obstacles
and with obstacles come fear
but the dream that is worth dreaming
finds its way to the dear

And the dream continues growing
Reaching heights before unseen
And it's all because of the courage of the dreamers
and their dream.

Written By: John Turnipseed, "Dare to Dream"

Soul Searching

Sometimes I wonder, if my life is just meant for this.

Sometimes, I dream that my feet takes me to places.

Places that I never knew existed.

Places that my heart wont dare.

Sometimes I wonder if this is all that life can offer

Sometimes, my mind wonders... as it stands still in awe...

to Places that the heart silently dreams

to Places that the mind slams shut

And reality comes vividly back

Back to where I am

As I wonder on...

....

Is this the thing we call life?

I came Undone

Lost in Translation

Thank you for crushing me. Now I realize that I had lost myself in you. Now I can focus on getting myself back to the incredible and single person I was before I was even been in a relationship. Thank you for making me see the beauty in this breakdown. There was magnificence and poetry in the pain I experienced. Thank you for helping me explore my artistic outlets. It has given me so much inspiration to pursue my love of the arts.

From: Thank you for breaking my heart

Take another Path

One day when you look for me

you won't find me

and in your heart

there'll be no one left to tell you

which path I took

and where I forgot you.

From: One Day When You Look For Me

Sun and Moon

There is a terrible pain in the left side of my heart. I can't seem to get it off my chest. Thinking of all my classes in internal medicine, I'm deciphering the various differential diagnoses I could get.

Am I having a heart attack?

Heart indeed. But no, not an attack. Just a case of emptiness.

It's funny how you possess that left side of my heart. Why not occupy this right side as well?

I don't know.

But these past days, all I know is that I feel pain.

You...

One day you will see that you were wrong about me.
One day you will see that everything I ever did was all for you
One day you will see that all of these was for us

Maybe.

But all I know is that one day, one day, one.... dayy..

One more day.

Soon.

Plan to Dream

Moonlight?

Need to Get this off my Chest

It's 12:21 AM. But my mind is racing.

I have been in deep thought for the past 2 days. I need to get this off my chest.

At present, all I could think of is the future.

Weird.

I'm that type of girl. I don't function without a plan.
Some just go with the flow, but for me. I can't.

I'm the go get it girl. I need a tangible something so that I can get it.

I'm thinking if I should go straight to residency or to follow my frustrated set aside dreams of writing, travelling, shooting for a video podcast and modeling. <3 (The last one is a long shot tho, haha)

Seriously, I have given so much thought on this.

Medicine will always be my passion and my love. But there is this part of me, another girl inside of me... wondering, just what if?

It's just gonna be a year anyways. But my fear is, I wish I could still get into the residency of my choice.

Becoming a pediatrician is still my dream.

But the excitement of the unknown... to follow where my dreams will take me.

Now that's something <3

Heart don't fail me now. Yes Anastacia. You and I, both <3