Late Bloomer

I Feel it Ending.

Life is finally about to

Start.

Oh the things I want to do in my life, will do on September!

I can't wait. 

I am proud to be a...

Late Bloomer.

Youth. That one thingy you give up for many.

#Medisina

Not Okay with Okay

In case you are wondering... I'm not okay. I'm not okay in settling. Yes, you heard me right.

Once was enough. But I'm not settling into something that I know I don't deserve.

I don't know when that day comes... and honestly, I'm not afraid if it doesn't come.

I'm not afraid.

I have no fear.

But if settling down to anyone is the norm these days, then I'm not okay.

...

I deserve more and if others can't give it to me.

I will give it all to myself.

Hashtag #empowered <3 hahahaha.

....

A dog would do, but that's work. Maybe a gold fish. Haha <3

Yahuhhhh

Pressured to be back in my size ASAP causes stress. This time, maybe just wait.

<3

Shredding

After enduring 10 years of medical education, I realized I have put some good amount of weight.

Stress. Binge eating and the like, has placed me in this current weight. HAHA.

Now, that I have all the time in the world, I realized that shredding down can be achieved.

I thought fast results would help but then I realized that I should be patient with myself.

Still not in the shape I want to be.


....


Getting there.

In Pursuit of Angela

The Alter Ego.

Her name is Angela.

Angela Callanta

Courage, my Dear

Some people only look at life through eyes that seldom gleam
while others look beyond today as they're guided by a dream
And the dreamers can't be sidetracked by dissenters who may laugh
for only they alone can know how special is their path

But dreams aren't captured easily;
there's much work before you're through
but the time and efforts are all worthwhile
when the impossible comes true

And dreams have strength in numbers
for when a common goal is shared
the once impossible comes true because of all who cared

And once it's seen as reality a dream has just begun
for magically from dreams come dreams
And a walk becomes a run

But with growth of course comes obstacles
and with obstacles come fear
but the dream that is worth dreaming
finds its way to the dear

And the dream continues growing
Reaching heights before unseen
And it's all because of the courage of the dreamers
and their dream.

Written By: John Turnipseed, "Dare to Dream"

Soul Searching

Sometimes I wonder, if my life is just meant for this.

Sometimes, I dream that my feet takes me to places.

Places that I never knew existed.

Places that my heart wont dare.

Sometimes I wonder if this is all that life can offer

Sometimes, my mind wonders... as it stands still in awe...

to Places that the heart silently dreams

to Places that the mind slams shut

And reality comes vividly back

Back to where I am

As I wonder on...

....

Is this the thing we call life?

Lost in Translation

Thank you for crushing me. Now I realize that I had lost myself in you. Now I can focus on getting myself back to the incredible and single person I was before I was even been in a relationship. Thank you for making me see the beauty in this breakdown. There was magnificence and poetry in the pain I experienced. Thank you for helping me explore my artistic outlets. It has given me so much inspiration to pursue my love of the arts.

From: Thank you for breaking my heart

Take another Path

One day when you look for me

you won't find me

and in your heart

there'll be no one left to tell you

which path I took

and where I forgot you.

From: One Day When You Look For Me

Sun and Moon

There is a terrible pain in the left side of my heart. I can't seem to get it off my chest. Thinking of all my classes in internal medicine, I'm deciphering the various differential diagnoses I could get.

Am I having a heart attack?

Heart indeed. But no, not an attack. Just a case of emptiness.

It's funny how you possess that left side of my heart. Why not occupy this right side as well?

I don't know.

But these past days, all I know is that I feel pain.

You...

One day you will see that you were wrong about me.
One day you will see that everything I ever did was all for you
One day you will see that all of these was for us

Maybe.

But all I know is that one day, one day, one.... dayy..

One more day.

Soon.

One Day.

"I could have loved you until your walls came down, and in the midst of the rubble we’d find a place to start rebuilding. I wanted to show you that things that get knocked down can be rebuilt and that letting someone else help build you up can make you strong.

You couldn’t let me love you, so for a while you decided to make me hate you. How crazy is it that for you that was easier to accept? You were more comfortable with my bitterness and regret than with my genuine compassion. I realized too late that maybe you had seen this coming and decided to get out while you could still tread water, not realizing I would drown either way.

It’s true that I could have loved you. But you would have had to let me."

From,

If You Had Let Me, I Could