Medical Students = Profit for Tea/Coffee Shops

At some point in your medical life, you will get tired of studying inside your room. Thus, the existence of coffee shops and tea shops have been such a big relief for medical students.

I usually study in Banawe since that is the nearest commercial lot within my home.

I found this cool tea shop, Zen Tea. For only P50.00, I have fast wi-fi connection, outlet (unlimited) and really great flavored green tea. I used to study in Starbucks cafe, but my financial status can't afford the P150.00 worth of coffee. It closes until 12 a.m. so no need to feel "bitin" with your readings. You can also bring food. HAHAHA. Oh well, kapal muks kasi ako.

One accepted fact during your entire course of study in medicine proper is that you won't be able to save money for yourself. I am still struggling with that hard truth.

I am 25 years old at present but still I feel dependent on my parents and I hate it.

I hope one day, this f* hardship will pay off.

This is the inconvenient truth. Something to ponder on before entering medical school.

101 Reasons why I can't have my own Car

I can give you 101 reasons why I can't have my own car. But, on top of the list is the fact that the place I'm residing is not flood-free.

All the more reasons, why I am this close in finally giving in to my boyfriend's plea to live in the far away land of Las Piñas City when the time comes.

But then again, let's see.

P.S. All I ever wanted for this school year was to experience what it's like to drive a car in school. Was that too much too ask? Hmm. I guess it was.

Holding on to Fear

Fear is the ability to recognize danger leading to an urge to confront it or flee from it (also known as the fight-or-flight response) but in extreme cases of fear (horror and terror) a freeze or paralysis response is possible as defined by wikipedia.

Imagine that... "in extreme cases of fear, a freeze or paralysis response is possible."

I don't have to ask, since it is given that at one point of your life... you have experienced being afraid of something. As a matter of fact, I also had.

Ever since I could remember, this strange emotion we call fear has been running my life. From the horror of my past to the anxiety of tomorrow, I feel compelled. Not just compelled actually, but something I think that I hold on to. Holding on to fear is my biggest weakness. Maybe not just a weakness but a technique on how to survive.

Everyone does it and we all have our reasons. It may be due to the fact that we have lost something dearly in our lives and come out of that situation, wanting to prevent any similar circumstances to ever happen again. You tell yourself that the pain is cut deep and subconsciously, we do not realize that the response we give to that pain is by burying the hurt inside. At an instant, we shut everyone and everything out in the path similar to the road we deem will yield that lost and we get over-protective, suffocating all the people around us.

Whatever reasons we tell ourselves, the fact remains... fear takes control of the decisions we partake in our lives as a consequence of the experiences we have gathered from life itself.