Life I protect. Life I preserve. Life I defend.
The main reason why I want to become a professional physician someday is to simply bring life to others. Define life. Life for me is made up of the simple tasks we do daily. Therefore when we ask ourselves the question: "What do we expect from life?" This is simply wrong. Day to day, life constantly asks us... "What do you have in store for me?" Life only asks us to be RESPONSIBLE.
Journey down the Crossroads
It took me three years to get out of the crossroads. It was when I was robbed out of my being that I started to doubt in the purity of my actions and intentions. That was the time when I told myself: "Am I honestly serious that I want to give up my life for others?" The irony of medicine is that in order to save lives, it requires your own. For my entire pre-medical years, I had to dedicate my time and commitment in learning. When I shockingly got delayed one semester due to a failed subject, I saw the opportunity to run... to run and save my life.
Obstacles Along the Way
I was afraid to go back once more in this road less traveled. But unfortunately/fortunately, I have stage parents who wouldn't allow me to waste this grand opportunity. Fight as I want to, I failed. I had no escape but to go back and face the music. I am my biggest critic. I was so disappointed at myself that I just wanted to quit.. but God did not allow me to. He made me realize many things. Thanks to a social climber bitch who made me breakdown, I was able to release suppressed emotions that was hindering me to go forward.
The Bitter Taste of Medicine
Life is hard. Life is unfair. Life is difficult. Yet I am among those masochistic fools who are going to offer a living sacrifice of study for the greater good. The bitter taste of medicine is simply this: "To save lives, you must give up your own." And for someone to honestly ridicule that living sacrifice by simply calling us names is below the belt. Yet again, it is not what people do to us that matters. It is how we respond to what these people do to us. This time around when people do call me such names, I would simply smile. :)
The Long Road Awaiting For Me
The days are still long until that day when I finally set foot on my medical school. Anxiety, anticipation and excitement prevails. Where oh where would I end up in the end? The guidelines for a good medical schools are here (just press the link). But for some weird reasons, I no longer worry for I know I am not alone in this journey. God will lead me the way. I am your doctor, Oh Lord. Take me where you want me to be. This is my living sacrifice to you... the bitter taste of medicine; the bitter taste of life.
2 feedbacks
Hi. I just came across your blog and I wanted to ask someone who is in MedSchool something. Was there any time in your life that you wanted to quit Med school? =)
ReplyDeleteOh hello, I guess I am months late in answering your question... I apologize about that, Med school is taking a lot of my time nowadays. But yes, many times on my 1st year proper.. :)
ReplyDeleteMaybe I'll write about that experience in the future, thanks for the thought :)
I didn't quit because from the beginning I held sight of my goals. If you're an aspiring medical student, my advice for you is to make a list of your goals and dreams and read it everyday or when sh*t happens. Hehe.. That's what I do, when everything seems so unclear :)
Good luck and I'm glad this blogsite is helping you, I'll try to update it often :)